Sometimes you are rendered so helpless...at the hands of fate that it boils down to one basic question - " Does your own effort really matter ? "

U r many a times criticised for hiding under the cushions of hypocrisy, for being diplomatic..but i never knew that one could be criticised for being true and transparent as well!!

You are hammered for being delicate and the same people hammer u later for being strong under the given circumstances !!

Now if there has to be a protocol for even the kind of behaviour that one is suppose to follow, then I guess you just lose out on the essence of being true to yourself!!

I do not know as to what kind of projection I am suppose to make, I do not know as to how to manipulate myself, my feelings , my behaviour as per the need of the hour... I donot know how to lay the tables , how to play a role.. all of it just to benefit myself at the end... I find it so derogatory.. n people call it tact!!

Probably God had me as an exception when these tacts were being endowed....!!